I'm confused. Dreams . . . What are mine?

[Read the title of this post as Jerri Blank.]

Sometimes, I really want to be an art history professor. I can imagine being good at it; I have a lot of ideas on different methods of teaching the material. It helps that I think art history is fascinating, and it's still my favorite academic field to think about. Usually, I hate debates. But I love to read about arguments on art history.

But then I feel like a fraud for not paying a lot of attention to art the past year, especially this semester.

Dammit, if I could just focus on this paper.

I'm going right now to work. And to have an English muffin.

Taking a Break

I just have to make a brief declaration of my newest love: Freaks and Geeks.

I've finally gotten around to watching it, and it's even better than I imagined it could be. So funny and sweet and real. Watching it with my friends has been getting me through this week.I'll probably have to buy it. And it has Jason Segel, who I first knew as Marshall from How I Met Your Mother, who I also have to say I'm crushing on right now.

That's right. How I Met Your Mother. I defend my right to like it.

But Freaks and Geeks is, of course, better.

Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining

So, I touched on this a bit in the last posting, but I'll say it again. I've been continually impressed with how everyone has acted as a result of losing Randy. Almost everyone (with a few new people) showed up to a meeting last night, and it was probably the briefest, most effective one we've had yet. We're finally at the point where we're ready to actually discuss the greater issue at hand, i.e. sexuality and religious (LCMS) doctrine. And it looks like we'll have a Gay-Straight Alliance on campus, too.

It almost makes me wish that we had had to face this together sooner, albeit under less tragic circumstances. But gosh, I really want to leave Concordia a better and more open place than I came to, and it makes me so excited that a lot of people feel the same way. At the same time, I am so grateful for the thoughtful way that the students have been approaching the issue. We've heard differing opinions, but it's clear that everyone wants to be respectful of each other. At the end of the evening, someone actually said something to the effect of "we've done nothing wrong, and whatever feelings you have should be voiced without you feeling guilty about them."

Someday, I just might be proud of having my name attached to Concordia.